Now, lying down on the bed staring at the ceiling thinkin bout my life. Managed to pull through all the shit that I've undergone and the ones that I'm going to go through. Damn.. That's a whole lotta shit! But hey, life's like a dick, sometimes it gets hard for no reason. We just have to find a way around those problems and we're good.
Anyway, I'm not sure why but I feel lost and confused. I don't understand myself and I don't seem to know what I want or how I'm feeling about different things. I'm able to help others but I can't help myself. That's probably how everyone is eh.. Sometimes I wonder if I'm cursed or blessed with this life. All those different feelings wrapped around me, holding me down.Oh god, how am I gonna pull through this. But the thing that keeps me moving, is knowing that I've already pulled through lots of shit, and this one ain't no different.
There's no point whining and complaining about how fucked up you life is, cause that'll only make things worse. So, like what I always tell others, or what others always tell me, suck it up, fuck those problems and move on with life. I've been told this many times 'follow your heart'. And yes, that's what I'm doing now and hell yeah it feels awesome. You want something, go for it, before it's too late. Better to be happy that you've tried rather than regret that you didn't. So to speak, I've been there and done that. I've learnt from my mistakes and moved on. And, I'm definitely not going back to square one. That would be foolish of me. So.. yeah. Don't be afraid to pursue your dreams. For they might actually come true, that is, if you work hard enough for it.
