Resolutions.

Just got back from jogging with my bro. We jogged all the way to Parkway Parade. Fancy meeting Eric and the guys there haha. Chat for a lil while before all of us headed home. Surprisingly, today I'm not so tired. Usually by this time I'd be at war with my eyes trying to keep em open. Well, it must be because I woke up at 4pm today! Been quite awhile since I slept for more than 12 hours. And no I'm not a pig! Don't judge me man.I guess I'll probably sleep in bout 2 hours time. Waking up early to head the gym, buy some groceries and go back home. It's my grandma's birthday today. Imma try and bake a cake for her! Hope she'll like it:) Can't think of any present to give my grandma LOL. Hopefully a card and the cake will mean alot to her. what the hell I'm saying, I ain't telling you anything :)

Today is the last day of 2010. Probably going for the party @ Scape later on, hopefully. Been spending New Year with family for the past 17 years. Finally I can get the hell out of my house and spend it with friends! Hope it'll be fun. At the party, gonna practice my game and then I'll get to see how hard it is there on the field. I doubt most of you don't know what in the world I just said but I ain't telling you nothing:)

New year's just around the corner. I've got lots of new year resolutions but I'm not too sure if I will follow them haha. Last year resolutions WENT TOTALLY THE OPPOSITE MAN. Managed to be successful at some though, but majority, FAILED MISERABLY. Alright, I'll write down ALL my resolutions and you guys be the judge. Sounds good?

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS -

- Make 0 enemies.

- Make HELL LOTTA NEW FRIENDS.

- Do at least 10 drum covers and at least 1 song from A7X.

- Cook at least 3 dishes of my own choice. ( 3 DIFFICULT ONES )

- Get my 6-pack HELL YEAH!

- I think it's time for me to get a girlfiriend. <- LOL

- Show my parents that they can trust me MORE than how much they do now.

- Do a lil volunteer work here and there.

- Make a video of myself rapping some songs and definitely my own as well. ( This is gonna be so damn funny )

- Reach 1000 friends on facebook!

- Quit smoking.

- Get my GPA up to at least 3.3.

- Improve my soccer skills.

- Stop wasting money on stuff I don't need.

- HAVE AN AWESOME MAGNIFICENT STUPENDOUS BIRTHDAY PARTY!

Yeah I think that's pretty much it. Looks like there is so much work to do HAHA. Honestly, I feel that most of them is easy to accomplish just that I have to set limits and discipline myself more. I ALWAYS tend to lose focus halfway into doing things.. Gotta step it up a notch if I want things to be done properly. So you guys think I can handle all the pressure trying to get all this done? I WILL SHOW YOU THAT I CAN, AND I WILL! Actually, what I wanna do most is just to be a better person. Looking at myself one year ago and now. Man.. that's alot of shit that I've done man. Been a rough and yet enjoyable year. As people always say, let's hope we make next year a better one. Time really flies very fast. I can still remember the day I got back my O's results like it was yesterday. Wish I could experience that moment all over again. Feels great making your parents proud and showing them that you are one step to becoming what they hope you'd become. And along the way, you'll go through a heap of shit but it all pays off in the end yeah? When you tell yourself that you can do something, damn right you can. Fuck the world. JUST FUCKING DO IT MAN. As long as it doesn't get you in trouble hehe. Here's a quote from Eminem, 'Every moment is another chance.' Have the confidence and set your mind to it and voila! You've got a great future to look forward to!!

WOOOOOOO I'm so high right now. WHY YOU ASK? EMINEM BABY! Last time it was all electro and R&B but now, it's RAP! He writes dope shit man. DOPE! I know I've talked about Eminem before and I ain't gonna talk much about him now. I've got work to do. Been cracking my head trying to write a rap for myself LOL! Bet most of you laughed when I said that but HEY! When I say I can be the next Eminem, DAMN RIGHT I CAN. You laugh at me now but once I hit that spot, I'll be laughing at you people HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA okay who am I kidding.. I don't wanna be the next Eminem. Just wanna be good at what he does, and what I like to do :) OKAY, it's time for me to get back to writin my rhymes and practicing em. CIAO!

This is some dope shit man. DOPE!

Unsettled.

Am I just deluding myself? Is it mere infatuation?

I don't fucking know.

Back to the same old boring shit.

Alright guys here are some pics of my trip to Bintan!

 

 So I got back around 5pm today. Was tired as hell man although I didn't do much since morning. Here's a summary of what I did at Bintan since Day 1.

DAY 1 :
- Hotel check-in ( God damn expensive )
- Checked out the sea sports available. ( Sadly, it wasn't the season for jet ski-ing and snorkeling )
- Had lunch ( The prices were even more expensive then eating at a hotel in Singapore.. )
- Walked abit then rode on the Quadbike with my siblings and dad.
- Played on the trampoline with my siblings! ( Look, I know it's childish but I STILL HAD FUN! )
- Played pool for an hour before LASER QUEST! Lost to my bro in it but trashed my sis! It's kinda like laser tag in How I Met Your Mother. The one Barney always plays with kids! IT'S DAMN FUN MAN! But we only had 3 of us so.. yeah :)
- Headed back to our room to chill, watch tv and sleep.

DAY 2 :
- Buffet breakfast. ( Couldn't resist temptation to eat )
- Went SURFING WOO!! Managed to balance and surf the whole wave on my second try! Guess I was born to surf ^^ Had rashes on my body due to the lousy quality surf board.. Gonna go to Bali with my friends to surf a REAL WAVE! Not some kinda pussy wave haha.
- Played at the beach and went swimming at the pool. DAMN! Lots of hot chicks! Especially the American ones! THE WHOLE FAMILY! If only... ahh nevermind.
- Went around Bintan, bought biscuits and drinks cause the ones back at the hotel was a rip off.
- Had dinner @ some expensive seafood place.
- Went back and SLEEP. Took me and my siblings about an hour to get to bed cause we were fooling around! Laughing our asses off in the middle of the night and scaring each other! The wind was making scary noises and that scared the crap out of my sis. Nothing beats spending time with family man <3

DAY 3 :
- Buffet breakfast AGAIN.
- Went to ride the Quadbike again! This time the guide took us to a different route and it was much more fun.
- Surfin AGAIN! The waves were much stronger but they were alot shorter then the ones the day before.
- Late lunch.
- Walked around, relaxed and went to sleep. Nothing much to do already ~
- Watched tv, packed our bags and went to bed.

DAY 4 :
- Buffet breakfast AGAIN..
- Rested in our rooms till check-out and headed back to Singapore.

Overall, the trip wasn't that bad. Besides surfing, playing at the beach and bonding with my family, there wasn't much to do. The prices were sky high. My rating would be a mere 6.5/10. Guess it was due to the season. If we had come around April, we could have gone snorkeling, jet-skiing, para-sailing and other awesome stuff! Oh well, there's always next time. Now, I'm back in Singapore and I've got to go through the same old shit. Gonna miss laughing and having fun with my sis and bro. The atmosphere back here is totally different. You feel me.

Anyway, Merry Christmas to you guys! Sorry for the late wish, was overseas :) Later, gonna head down to Tampines Mall to have lunch and catch a movie with the guys and Jac. Celebrating Jac's birthday too! Been a REALLY REALLY long time since I met them. New year is just around the corner and I hope I'll be able to go for the countdown party at Marina Bay! It's definitely gonna be awesome! I've got lots of resolutions in my mind. LOTS OF THEM. Gonna post them up later on. I hope I don't bore you guys with the details hehe. Alright man, I've got lots of stuff to do now. Plan for the soccer match against some friends on Tuesday, gotta call and text some guys and prepare something for someone. Not gonna get into details. I'm practically half dead.. Got home just now, changed and straight away left for Ion Orchard to have a look at the stuff going on there for Christmas and then followed my parents to Boon Keng to have kambing soup. I didn't have any though, was watching my diet :) Gotta rest for gym tomorrow too! After loading myself up at Bintan, I've got to get them all out!! Goodnight people and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JAC <3

Derezzed.

Hmmm.. what did I do today? Woke up at 11am, had breakfast, played DOTA till about 2pm and was looking at my phone,msn and facebook contacts to see who could go out with me today. So after HOURS of calling and messaging people, FAIZAL came to my rescue. THANKS BRO!! Thought you wouldn't wanna go cause it's only the 2 of us haha but you did, so THANKS ALOT FOR THAT :) Anyway, we watched Tron @ Cathay Orchard. Awesome show man. LOVED THE SOUNDTRACK. And the sound effects as well as animation is magnificent. You guys should catch it! Derezzed is the bomb man! It has been on replay since last week. Other than the soundtrack, the hawt babes in the show were awesome too! Man.. women in tights ^^ Not gonna side track here man.. So after the show we walked to Orchard mrt and headed back home. Didn't have dinner outside cause we wanted to save money. So I got home, had dinner and here I am! Packed my bags, leaving tomorrow for a 4 day holiday. As much as I don't wanna go, I don't have a choice. Hope it's fun though.. Singapore is so fuckin boring. No friends to go out with... No one even asked me out :( Sad.. I guess a holiday would be the perfect thing for me haha. My body is aching from intense workout in the gym yesterday. But it feels good yeahhhh ~

It's gonna be Christmas soon and I might not be back till next week so HAPP XMAS to you guys and girls out there! Go out with your friends man! Don't stay home and laze around on Christmas! Man.. I wish I had friends who were crazy about Christmas. They'd host dinners and parties.. The only party I can go is the one held in clubs and I'm not legal to get in. Don't know who to spend Christmas with. When I get back I'll ask around and see who's free eh :D

Oh and to my younger bro, SCREW YOU for not replying my messages. Everytime I sms you, you barely reply me! I really hate it when people don't reply me.. If they are busy, the next best thing to do is say you're busy or reply when you're free eh?
Sometimes, when people ask me to do them a favour, I'll try my best to help them if I'm free but when it becomes my turn to ask them to do me a favout, they'll just do it half-heartedly or not do it at all.. Only some people will really help me and I really do appreciate them. I just feel that people like to take advantage of me for some reason. Don't wanna be Mr-Nice-Guy anymore but that won't do me any good would it? So I'll just have to bear with it and hope that you realize that you're being a douche.

First few days of holidays don't seem to be going good for me.. When I get back, I hope the second week would be the total opposite ~ Hope my friends aren't busy then. Everyone seems to be so busy and some just couldn't be bothered to accompany me. Such good friends :) Haiz.. I think I better get to bed soon. Gotta wake up early later on, don't wanna oversleep!

BEFORE I GO, you guys, and girls of course, should go check out Mike Tompkins cover of Only Girl, the acapella. It's god damn good man! His sings very well. That kid's got a bright future ahead of him. And one thing I HATE ABOUT YOUTUBE, in EVERY SINGLE GOD DAMN MUSIC VIDEO, there's a comment about JUSTIN BIEBER. WHAT THE FUCK? I KNOW RIGHT. DAMN IRRITATING.
Some would be like, 'Those who dislike are Bieber fans..' or 'The dislike bar is as long as JB's dick' LOL! That made me laugh but still, his name has to be brought up in every single video. Maybe youtube should like ban his name or something? Haha.. just sayin man. Alright folks, my eyes are telling me it's time to sleep! Cheers ^^ :)

Stoning..

I am god damn bored..

Common Tests Over.

OH YEAH! Common tests finally over! Just got through a rough week. Parents got back and established new household rules.. As usual, the rules suck big time. Been studying like a dog for my Business Law, POA and Macroeconomics paper. Surprisingly, I could go ALL OF THEM!! Let's just hope that my results aren't too bad this time round :) Gotta pull my GPA up if I wanna get into a local university, which honestly I do not want. During the econs paper today, I was helping everyone.. Mitchell on my left, Yan Seng in front, Felix on my right and Patrick behind me. ALL KEEP ASKING ME FOR ANSWERS!! God damn irritating.. Especially this Felix.. DOTA UNTIL 2 AM SOMEMORE, then come for the paper unprepared.. And he got 'sabo-ed' for ALL PAPERS. Patrick gave him the wrong answers.. Damn funny man! After each paper, he comes out saying all his answers and realizes he's wrong and punches us for no reason.  Oh well, what's done is done. SO LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES! Don't ask Patrick for answers again LOL!

Anyway, Felix is going to China for about 8 days. He's leaving tomorrow morning.  He goes to China almost every year.. Wouldn't it be boring to go to the same country every year? It seems so... but I think he likes it there. Especially the 'special service' if you know what I mean ^^ Nahh, he doesn't do that. At least that's what he tells me. Who knows.. maybe he tried it before haha. First week of holiday he's gonna be gone and it'll probably be quite boring for me.. but I think I'll be going to Malaysia for about 3 days or so. So.. yeah,  I hope my trip to Malaysia will be fun. Supposed to go to Europe but the holiday is only 2 weeks and my older brother is in camp. So I guess that can only happen next year. CAN'T WAIT!!
Have a safe flight bro and PLEASE bring back something for me :)

Man.. I miss the freedom I had when my parents wasn't around. I hate curfews man.. And I'm short of cash too. I HATE being broke man. Can't do shit except stay home and laze around.. God damn boring. The past few days I've been suffering alone at home. Sometimes it's fun when I disturb my siblings but other than that, BORING.. Everyone is busy studying for common tests and now that it is FINALLY OVER I HOPE WE CAN GO OUT MORE OFTEN! When I've got nothing to do, I kill time by doing stuff I don't want to. Sleep like a pig, EAT and some other shit.. Can't wait till the second week of holidays. Lots of stuff going on!! Christmas parties, Jac's birthday and New Year!! And then, countdown to my birthday! Smiling like a gay fag to myself on the screen when I talk about my birthday.. Too excited man. Don't blame me :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE and best wishes for your birthday <3 :) I miss you man..

Soooo... I think imma go have an early dinner now then gonna head down to Clarke Quay to meet some friends. I will die if I stayed home today. Alright people, ROHAIL SIGNING OFF :)

Discretion.

Hey! I'm finally back! So damn bored studying for business law, so I decided to blog. Oh man, I've been spamming trance/electro/dance music for the past few weeks. Awesome shit! Check out some videos I posted on my facebook wall! Gets you in the mood to dance eh!! Haha. Anyway, can't wait to turn 18 man! Wanna go clubbing and pick up chicks ^^ My birthday is in a month but I still can't wait man! Gonna have an awesome party with my good friends. I've never actually had a party for my birthday. Everytime I would just invite my closest friends over for lunch or soccer. Pretty boring eh? So I really hope I can have this one AWESOME 18th birthday next year and I hope my friends can help it make it the most memorable one ever! Just wanna let loose for the night and do all the shit I wanna do, without anyone scolding me or getting pissed off at me for some reason. Damn.. I was supposed to go zoukout last night but I decided not to due to my business law paper on Monday. CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED TIESTO AND GUETTA.. That's one hell of a sacrifice!! So no excuses for not doing well in blaw paper! To all those having common tests goodluck! Holiday's just around the corner! Study hard, get it done and over with and ENJOY THE GOD DAMN HOLIDAYS!!

It's already DECEMBER. Yeah, time flies damn fast. Just one year ago I was probably chilling out with my dearest friends from secondary school. And seeing how much everyone has changed. It has definitely been a rough journey through poly. You get to meet new people, learn how fucked up your friends can become and see what lies deep inside them. The sad truth. Comparing myself to all my friends, I know I've changed the most. For the better? No. But I must say this, I've enjoyed myself, at least most of my poly life so far. But I promise myself I won't change any further. If you think I'm lieing to myself by saying this, then I guess you don't know me that well. I've set my limits straight, and damn sure I ain't gonna cross them. You guys say you miss the old me, honestly speaking, I don't miss my old self as much as you guys do. Been through lots of shit and I don't intend to go back. I just wanna apologise to all my friends and to whoever I might have hurt. I just wanna be 'part' of you guys. If you know what I mean. As mentioned above, 2010 have been a rough yet magnificent year for me. I hope 2011 will be better in terms of relationships with friends and families and my studies as well. I've got to know lots of stuff about different people. Found out who my 'true' friends were as well as made new 'brothers'.

Regarding the title of the post, as much as I DESPISE blogging about what I dislike, I just wanna say that I REALLY HATE people blogging bad about me. Even if you never mention my name, I'm sure some people know who you are talking about. And I'm not proud of what I do so you don't have to go around telling people. Anyway, I just wanna apologise to you for saying bad stuff behind your back and letting you down. There was a point in time where I actually didn't give a shit about what you think but I value our relationship more than my ego. So here I go again, I'M SORRY, to you, and to everyone out there. You are still one of my best friends and I love you. Hope you understand.

Not gonna post any emo shit stuff about my life or talk about how sad I feel or whatever. Life is short. ENJOY IT WHILE YOU CAN. Can't wait to turn 18 man! I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I CAN SAY THAT! Oh and my parents are coming back today. They've been gone for nearly a month and I HAVE TO SAY THAT THE PAST ONE MONTH HAVE BEEN ONE FUCKING HELL OF A RIDE! Probably one of the most enjoyable month I've ever had. Not saying that I hate my parents' presence but it's just that I don't get the freedom I deserve. Curfew here and there and limitations. Sucks a lot man. Oh well, nothing lasts forever. I guess I should probably go back to studying and SPAMMING Swedish House Mafia & Tiesto! CAN'T GET ENOUGH MAN! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO okay bye :)

STONED!

Last night was fucking awesome! GODD DAMNN STONEDD MAN!

Temptations..

RESIST THOSE GOD DAMN TEMPTATIONS ROHAIL!! You're gonna regret it sooner or later so DON'T YOU DARE DO IT! Oh my.. I feel so weird talking to myself. It's almost 4am now, and I can't sleep cause I'm damn full. Had a HEAVY supper with my cousins and bro at simpang about an hour ago. Haven't felt this full for quite awhile now and I really hate this feeling!! Anyway, the ride home was damn funny man. My bro was driving like he was playing daytona! Everytime he crossed the traffic light we all would go ' time extension ' and laughed our asses off. We even counted down the timing and when it was almost 0, he slowed down the car and managed to cross the traffic light and he sped up. Funny shit man! Before that we watched Harry Potter at tmall. EVEN FURTHER BEFORE THAT, I watched Easy A with cat, zx and jacinta. Why you so quite today uh! Moody sia somebody haha. Anyway, before watching the movie with them, I owned, no wait, PWNED zx in daytona like nearly 8 games in a row? He thinks he is better than me.. Oh well, guess your time have passed. IT'S MY TIME TO SHINE BABY! I feel like I'm on crack man.. I'M DEFINITELY NOT! And I was just thinking of where to celebrate my 18th birthday but the thought of even celebrating it haven't really crossed my mind. People are saying that, your 18th birthday must be an 'awesome' one. Maybe not for me. Didn't celebrate my 17th birthday because I was too busy thinking of how I was gonna do for my O's!! Results came out just a day after my birthday! Sucks eh.. Probaby gonna stone in front of my computer for the next hour or so? No one is online.. No one to talk to :( It's only 4 am!! THE NIGHT IS YOUNG PEOPLE!

Gonna be 18 soooon! But nothing much is gonna change.. Whatever I do is part of 'growing up' and doing stuff just for the sake of trying and some other reasons too.I am young and curious! Too much stuff I wanna do, too little time. If i wrote down the stuff I wanna do in life, you guys would probably grow old reading them. So I guess I won't be writing them down. I feel like going to starbucks man! Been ages since I've went there and had a nice and decent chat with anybody. Miss those times man .. Everyone is so busy right now, studying and sports. All I do is go to school, hit the gym and head home. Boring much? Haven't really started studying. Skipping lectures, sleeping in class and copying homework.. I'm in deep shit if I continue this routine. But I just can't seem to study at home. Need someone to go out and study with me.. Whenever someone asks me out I'll most likely go cause I'm always bored at home.. Oh and I also feel like playing rockband !! Itchy hands man.. Gotta play the drums! Alright people, if there are even anybody who reads my blog ~.~ GOODNIGHT SUCKERS.

Jacinta is so damn fucking cute and awesome! ♥
However Catherine is even more cute and awesome! ♥

Matthew Hew is hot i like his tits!
Life is good :)

Boring.

Currently in LMS class and it is god damn boring. Teaching me how to listen to people and control my anger. WTF right?! Wake up every Friday at 5.30am just to attend this crap lesson. Thank god it ends at 11 if not I'll probably skip this class every week. It's freakin cold man! I feel like sleeping, but I'm trying to keep myself awake by talking to people and playing robot unicorn attack on facebook! Damn, it's addictive haha! After school probably going to go have lunch with my friends at prata house. Been along time since I had prata! Eating it is a sin man! But once a month wouldn't hurt eh. After that gonna hit the gym with my cousin and hopefully watching a movie with Jac after gym-ing, provided she ain't busy. Oh crap, there's a group work to do now.. Gotta ciao ~ And why no one reads my blog! Check on it everyday man COME ON !

Wakakakakaka.

I'm feeling so fly like a G6!

It's different this time round.

Just when you thought everything was alright, you realize it ain't.

You won't really feel it until the moment you say goodbye.

Freedom.

What's up homies. My parents are going overseas for about a month. They're leaving tomorrow. I've been so psyched about this but now, I feel normal. No excitement or whatsoever. Been extremely tired for the past few days. Having trouble trying to stay awake in class. Lack of sleep plus hours of gyming. I can feel my body breaking down. Guess I have to rest more if not I'll just be causing more harm than good to my body. That's the last thing I would want to do. You know, it's so strange. You try to become someone you aren't just for the sake of accomplishing something. Even if it's for the wrong reasons. Sometimes you just want something so badly you would go all out to get it. Even if you're screwing yourself up. Most of the time you don't even realize that what you're doing is actually not the right thing to do. I'm the opposite of what I thought I would be. I've been lying my way through life. That's some fucked up shit eh? It's like there's a moving picture in my head that's been playing for months now. If I could, I would retrace every wrong move that I made, taking back all the pain. Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back. But that shit ain't easy. It's much easier to run than to face all the pain. Only losers and people who don't believe in themselves run. The one's who have faith will face it regardless of the pain involved. I can't feel the way I did before. Ahhh screw it.. I'm gonna go watch Lord Of The Rings now. Bored as hell. LOTR marathon till morning WOOOO! Don't intend to go to school today.. Damn shagg.


Just washing it aside.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending I don't feel misplaced.
It's so much simpler than change.

Random.

I miss you.

Memories.

I've just finished browsing nearly half or my old windows messenger conversations with some of my friends. I feel so fucked up right now. We used to be so happy last time but now it's all a thing of the past. Talked all night long. Asked each other for help on certain stuffs and entertained each other all night long. We sometimes even chatted all the way till sunrise. Really miss those times. Sadly, they'll never ever come back. Comparing to how we talk now, there's a huge gap in between and it's getting bigger and bigger and eventually, you might just become someone I once knew. (Hopefully that will never happen) I just can't bear the thought of you not being a part of my life. I hope we can go out, talk or even study the same way we used to do it last time. Now, talking to you seems kinda difficult for me. I've got no idea why, but I hate it. I've got to at least make an effort to try to bring back those memories. Even if it is not the same, a little close would do just fine. I think I'm the cause of this mess and I'm the only one that can fix it. But it won't be easy at all. Being able to make things exactly like last time would be just like going to hell and back, nearly impossible. Ain't gonna let this slip away. It wouldn't be possible to find someone else like you. I want go rewind my life. Back to the time when I was still in control of myself, when I was still holding on to my principles, when I still could see a promising future, when I was still enjoying the 'good' life. Sometimes I just feel like punching the fuck out of the wall and let it all out but it wouldn't be a good idea would it? Hell no. Guess I gotta let it all out on the zombies I would probably be killing later on instead. That is, if nothing goes wrong. Haha.. whatever.

Gosh.. that was a load of my mind.

Whatever.

I'm in a not so good mood right now due to some personal reasons. Anyway, just came back from shisha with my cousin. Talked a lot about life and shit. Cool and funny guy man. Wish I could be like him. Can't wait for my birthday next year. Why? Figure out yourself. Most of my friends only turn 18 a few months after I do. So I guess I'll have to wait for their birthdays and see if they would wanna help me and my endeavours. Don't blame me. I'm still at the age where I wanna try new things. We are all curious aren't we? I'll just try not to let the worse get the better of me or it would be disastrous. Anyway, sorry about the title. Couldn't be bothered to think of a proper one. I'm gonna sleep now. Gotta wake up at 6am. Sucks right? Tell me about it. I just wanna end with this quote.

'When you do something for someone, don't expect anything in return.'

It's coming back to me.

Just when I thought it was all over, it came back. I don't know why but I really want it this time round but it might not be for the best. Who knows? I'll just try to let it go but I know it will be fuckin' difficult. Sometimes I look at myself and think, why am I like this. Is it a blessing or a curse? Well, there's no point whining and complaining about myself because it will be pointless. I guess I gotta go along. Everyday it gets more and more difficult. Fuck it, I have to try my best to get a hold of myself before I make the same mistake I did before. We just don't learn sometimes do we? Maybe a hard blow will make me learn. Maybe it won't. We'll just have to see.

Holidays coming to an end.

I've been stoning in front of the computer for almost an hour or two. Freakin bored man. Most of my friends are offline, probably sleeping cause they've got school in the morning and I'm over here on the verge of dying of boredom. School starts next week and I've got totally no mood to study right now. I'm not satisfied with this holiday. I feel like I wasted lots of time, as usual, and that I didn't do anything productive. As a matter of fact, this holiday is probably the worst ones I've ever had so far. I'm not gonna say why though. Did many things, both good and bad. Well, I'm still young and I'm curious. I wanna experience new things and try stuff. Curiosity killed the cat. Let's hope it won't kill me. There's still lots of stuff I wanna try but as always, time isn't enough.

Been going to the gym very often lately and I feel great! I just hope all my hard work will pay off in the next few months. Used to gym at home but as days go by, I find myself getting lazier and lazier. Don't have discipline at all. So I decided to join a gym. At least when I pay for it, I will go for it because I don't wanna waste my money. And plus, the gym keeps my mind off things and it helps me to make myself look better. My whole body is aching now. I'll definitely wake up feeling very weak later on. But it will all pay off, eventually. 

Anyway, back to holidays. I really need to get out of Singapore man. It's god damn boring here and I have got no idea what else is there to do to have fun. I wanna go to Phuket, Malaysia or even Dubai with my friends. It will definitely be awesome. Just us friends hangin out. No parents at all. Sounds good right? I'm saving up now so that the next holiday, I can ask my friends to get out of Singapore with me. Maybe for a week tops. That's definitely enough to cool off and relax. Away from all the problems here. Just when you've solved one, another one comes up. It's never ending man. So, anyone up for a week of fun out of Singapore? Let me know yeah!

Before I go off, I just wanna talk about a song with you guys. I'm pretty sure you've all heard this song before, 'Not Afraid' by Eminem. If you have made bad decisions and did stuff that have made a bad impact on your life, don't worry. Just leave it all behind and start anew. It's never too late. You gotta be strong man because, in life, the weak will always fall. Don't let one bad thing turn your life around. Learn from your mistakes. I've probably mentioned this a dozen times but what the hell, It's an awesome quote. There will definitely be people who looks down on you and will want you to fail in life. You have to show them that you can beat everyone's expectations and overcome them. It's all in the song if you hear the lyrics with your heart instead of your ears. Well that's all I wanna say for now. Goodnight!

It takes 2 hands to clap.

Hey guys. I'm feeling a lil down today.. I'm tired and hungry but I don't wanna eat and before I sleep, I wanted to blog.

So here's what I wanna talk about. I'm sure most of you, okay probably all of you have friends. Am I right? Absolutely. Well, how many of your friends actually do care for you? All of them you say? Maybe, maybe not. They might not show that they care for you but you know, somewhere in your heart, that they do. But we all need to see is or hear those words once in awhile don't we? Sometimes you have to show that you do, just to prove to them that those feelings inside are real. Don't expect them to say ' Hi, how're you? ' or share their problems with you when you yourself don't even do the same to them. As mentioned above, it takes 2 hands to clap. True friends are those who come and talk to you, ask you for advice and help when needed. When in trouble, they will come and help and ensure that you don't get into any sort of trouble. A friend shares the good times and helps out by listening during the bad times. A true friend is someone you can disagree with and still remain friends. If disagreeing ends the friendship, that person isn't your true friend in the first place. Everyone needs friends. If you say you don't, you're a fucking retard. Go make some friends because you probably don't have good ones. It's not that difficult to make friends. Just walk up to someone, BE NICE and say hi and shake his hand. Start a conversation, and there you go. Friend made. Easy as one, two, three. That's how I met Faizal and Yan Seng. My 2 best friends from poly. If I didn't walk up to them and talk to them, I would probably be stuck with Felix. Not that there's anything bad but.. yeah. I'm sure you get me. It's not easy to build trust in a friendship or relationship. Sometimes it takes months, years. But once you've built it, it's damn simple to break it. That one mistake might break that trust and it would be a lot more difficult to gain that trust back. If not, impossible. I have this principle that I follow. Never trust your friends a hundred percent. Because once they back stab you, you're as good as dead. 


Don't think that me posting this means that I don't have good friends. I've got many amazing ones. And I'm not targeting anyone specifically by posting this, just letting out what's on my mind.I just feel that people nowadays don't cherish what they have, and only realize it after it's gone. By then it's too late. So hold on to what you have now. You will never know when they'll go away. If you haven't, go to your phone or windows messenger and say hi to some of your closest friends. Ask them how are they. I'm sure it will make them feel good. They will appreciate you and probably do the same to you next time. Don't hide your problems from your friends, in fact, only share them with your closest ones. If you have a problem that you can't share with your family, do it to your friends. They will hear you out and definitely try to help. That's what friends are for right? To make your life a much simpler and enjoyable one. But, one thing to keep in mind. Let's say you treat them to a meal. Or maybe get them a souvenir or a gift, whatever. Don't expect anything in return. Don't be selfish. Give them something because you want to show how much you care for them, or appreciate them. 


Think about it, you know you're smart, but you keep flunking your exams. People will think that you are dumb and stupid. If you pass all your exams with flying colours, then people will know that you are really smart. Show to people that you care.  For me, I try to make it a habit to go out with both my poly friends as well as my secondary school friends AT LEAST once a week. Even if it's for a short while, meeting them will make me feel good. I can talk to them about anything under the sun and they will help me. I've heard people say that when silence between you and someone is comfortable, that means you're good friends. I believe it's true. Happened to me countless number of times. Sometimes I struggle to start a conversation though.. Even if it's about something stupid or interesting, I'll just try my best to start one. I NEVER fail to laugh whenever I go out with my friends. Be it sharing my problems or having a meal with them. Keep that fire going man. Don't let it die. I promise, you will regret it. There's just one flaw in friendships. Sometimes you tend to like or rather fall in love with one of your friends. Let me tell you, that situation FUCKING SUCKS. You want to be more than just friends but if things go bad, you will lose that person. At the same time, you don't want to take a step forward because you're afraid that you'll lose him or her. You can't bear not having that person in your life because she or he is too precious to you. You have to think about it hard and make a decision that you know that is best for you in future. I've got some friends who have also fallen for their good friend and they are all in pieces. Most of them are. Some of them choose to take their friendship to the next level and some of them decided not to. If you're lucky, your decision will make you a happier person. But if you're not, I feel you. Sometimes it's better not to take risks. Just go with the flow. Goodnight fellas. It's bed time :)

Just like old times.

What's up fellas! I'm back and I'm not doing too well. Why you ask? You'll find out soon enough.

So I woke up around 10.45am and just nice Faizal called me. He said he was outside my house and the first thing that came to my mind was that he was bullshitting! But, surprisingly, he was really there. Man, that guy is awesome. Came all the way from Yishun to see me! Thumbs up dear friend :) When he came in, we talked for a lil while before I hit the gym. Did some warm-up exercises and jogged for about an hour. He was playing drums while I was gyming. He sucks man, but you can't blame him. He's a marvelous guitarist after all. After taking a refreshing shower, we had lunch at my place before heading for Parkway Parade. I went there because I wanted to get new specs but the shop assistant said that I could fix my old one and save money. So I'll probably be going back there later on to get it fixed. We bought honey almond nuts there. I LOVE ALMONDS MAN. MAKES ME FEEL GOOOOOD ! Only bought 100grams though. Didn't wanna stuff myself with nuts or I might just go nuts. OKAY LAME.

After walking around, we went to the bus stop, and waited for bus 36. Supposed to me Catherine and Jacinta at 2.30 but SOMEBODY had things to do and changed the plan to 3.30 but SOMEBODY wasn't done then and we ended up meeting them at 5. Man, I really wanted to go to Sentosa to check out the activities there. Haven't been there in quite awhile now. But there's always next time. I promised my friends I will go to Universal Studios with them and I will hold on to that promise! We met the girls at city hall and headed towards Dhoby Ghaut and then to Harbour Front, Vivo City. Funny thing happened at Dhoby Ghaut. The girls we engrossed with my iPhone. Some cookie game which I think is ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS. Because of that, after me and Faizal entered the MRT, Jacinta rushed in as there was the announcement which said 'Doors closing'. Catherine also rushed in but TOO BAD! The door closed on her. RETARDED? I KNOW RIGHT!! Haha sorry Cat :P So we stopped at the next station, Clarke Quay and boarded the next train. Laughed our asses off. When we arrived at Vivo, we went to check out some shops and I bought Forbes magazine from the book store there, Page One. I've no idea why but I find myself engrossed in business books and stuff. Probably wanna start my mini business soon. Hope I can do it :)

Felix came around 6.30 but he had to go off earlier cause he had to meet Calvin and Gideon at Tampines 1. The rest of us carried on with dinner at Fig & Olive. Honestly, it wasn't up to my expectations. Firstly, the food they served was cold and they don't even know how to top up the drinks. Bad service, BAD FOOD! Plus, the food was on me. I wanted to treat them cause I just got my salary but didn't enjoy the food though. I'll treat them next time and I'll make sure the food is good! I feel very good when I treat my friends. Not trying to flaunt or whatever but honestly, I really do.

Moving on, after that we went to the sky park and sat down and talked. Nice view of Sentosa! Still waiting to go there with my friends. After talking and laughing for about an hour or so, Cat and I headed to Simei to meet potato (Jacinta). Faizal went off. I guess he was tired. Throughout the whole MRT Cat was playing my iPhone until my battery went flat. EVERY SINGLE TIME I GO OUT WITH EITHER ONE OF THESE GIRLS MY PHONE'S BATTERY WILL DEFINITELY DIE! But... what the hell. As long as they have fun then it's alright. So we talked at Starbucks. Oh and we also played stress!! If you don't know what it is, I'm not gonna tell you. Go search it on Google fool. Cat SUCKED AT IT cause she have never played it before, so we taught her. I was the one who taught potato and she thought she could win me.. Gosh. She must be insane to think so! Jacinta, if you wanna be the best, you got to beat the best. ME! Don't blame luck. It's all skills my friend :) Maybe just a pinch of luck. After indulging ourselves in fun and laughter, we decided to head home as it was getting quite late. That pretty much sums up this day. I haven't been to Starbucks with them for quite a long time and I'm glad to say I'm delighted that I did last night. I'm not gonna lie, but I miss you guys man. Let's do it more often alright! Just like old times ^_^

Other than what I've mentioned about what I did last night, lots of stuff was going through my head. Mainly, about business. I so called took ' a leap of faith ' the day before and now, I am regretting that I did. Without thinking or asking for advice, I let greed took control of me and I didn't make a wise decision. I'm not gonna say what I did but whatever it is, I'm just gonna tell you people one thing. Before taking a leap of faith, sometimes you gotta take two steps back. Don't do it because you feel it's the right thing to do. Don't think once, not twice, but thrice and make sure you are ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that whatever it is you're gonna do, something good can come out of it. At least not at the expense of other people's misery. I'm learning from my mistakes, and that's what keeps me going. I know I've failed, and I'm not going to do it again. That's business, even life has the same aspects. It may take failure before success. There's NO easy way out. And if there is, it's probably not the right thing to do. You gotta play your cards right and you'll succeed. I am fucking pissed at myself for doing such a thing and I feel like banging my head on the wall a thousand times but what good will that do to me? Yeah, nothing. So I'm not gonna dwell about it. Because making mistakes is alright, as long as you don't repeat them.

That's about all I wanted to blog about tonight. Damn bloody tired now, but it was definitely worth it. And I can't wait to meet up with Matthew next week at Nabins! Wanna shisha hehe :D  I KNOW IT'S BAD OKAY! THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING TO DO IT LESSER NOW. Don't worry about me :) I'll try not to screw my life up. Fo shizzle my nizzle.

A day to remember.

What's up guys! I'm back :) Oh man, I've got work later on and I haven't had a good rest for the past couple of days. But what the heck, I'm gonna try my best to keep this blog alive!

So, yesterday, FOR THE FIRST TIME, I actually went to meet my dear friends for breakfast. The last time we wanted to do that SOMEONE had to oversleep and screw up the whole plan. I wonder who :P Anyway, I met Felix, Jacinta and Kevin at 201 Mac Donalds and we walked to a nearby hawker centre. I can't remember what was the name of the place but whatever. I had laksa for breakfast. That's a first. After breakfast, we headed back to NASS. ( Ngee Ann Secondary School ) We wanted to slack at the library but Mr Ong, the operation manager didn't allow us too. Apparently only students and teachers are allowed in the school. We alumni have no rights! Who gives a shit. We left school and headed to Century Square to catch a show. At first we didn't know what show to watch. Faizal, Felix and I watched Buried the day before AND IT FUCKING SUCKED BIG TIME. THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE FUCKING SHOW, YOU CAN ONLY SEE DARKNESS AND A GUY IN A FUCKING COFFIN. NOTHING ELSE. PIECE OF SHIT WASTED MY $10.

 ANYWAY, we decided to watch eat, pray, love. The show was freaking boring man. Another $7 wasted. There was a guy who fell asleep during the show. That jackass didn't on silent mode on his cell so when it rang, we threw bottle caps at him but failed. Luckily, the ringing stopped. So we were disturbing each other throughout the whole show. Wasted our time watching that show. So after that we headed to Felix's house to chillax. Felix and I were waiting for our appointment timetable and we managed to get into TB02!! Sadly Hannah, couldn't get in :( Sorry man.. After all that, we decided to have our early dinner at Changi Village. We totally forgot that it closes on Mondays. So we walked and managed to find Magic Wok and ate there instead. I love Thai food so I did treat myself to a scrumptious meal there. We had kang kong, green curry soup, bonless thai sweet and sour chicken and rice. I think that's all we had. After that we still had lots of time so we headed to Changi Beach to waste time. We were walking along the beach and Jacinta wanted to pull out the plants. Felix, that smartass came up with a new word, 'undig'. He said, ' No,no you need to undig the sand first', trying to imply that we should dig the sand so it's easier to pull the plant out. Yes, WHAT.. THE.. FUCK. Totally made my day man. Lots of funny things happened there. We disturbed each other, as usual. And I guess it was stupid question day. All of us asked stupid questions to each other. Funny stuff. We stayed there till sunset. It was beautiful man. Here are some pictures of the sunset if you haven't seen them on facebook.

So after that, we sent Felix off to his piano class somewhere in Loyang. Then me and Jacinta went to Loyang Point to find some stuff that I needed at shop n save. After that we sat at a nearby playground and talked. We talked about ME. We had a deep and personal conversation. But I didn't tell her everything. I guess I wasn't prepared to. Sorry. The conversation made me realise what I've become and what I might be. And no, I don't want to continue going the wrong direction. Somehow, somewhere, I took a wrong turn. I guess It's time to turn back. I haven't talked to her for quite a long time and I gotta admit, it was nice talking to her this time. We don't get the opportunity to talk like this often so.. yeah. I'm glad it happened. There's still lots of things in my mind I want to let loose but I just can't. Why? Beats me. Eventually, it will all come out. I just can't go on doing what I'm doing right now. It's just too much. Sooner or later, I might just be too far from the line and it would probably be impossible to go back. Stress, emo, school and life are just excuses. I only have myself to blame.

Moving on, we talked for nearly an hour, while waiting for Felix who in the end, decided to bail on us. What a jackass. So we walked to the bus stop nearby Jacinta's house and then I left for home. That pretty much concludes what happened yesterday. It was awesome and I hope this will happen more often. When you're with a big group of friends, it just ain't the same when you're with just some of them. Not that I don't like them, It's just easier to talk to each other in a smaller group. Alright folks, that's all I'm gonna post for now. Gonna screw around with my brand new iPhone 4! Kudos to you.

Soccer!!

Oh man.. I feel damn great after playing soccer! It's been ages since I last played. I played at Kallang Cage with Calvin, Gideon, Faizal, Jing Yang, Zhen Feng, Darren, Ernest, Justin and some other friends. We had an AWESOME time man! Especially Calvin, he has been dying to play soccer since before his promos and now that they're finally done with it, we can play just like old times! I haven't played sooo long and I'm damn rusty. Need to brush up by playing more and more often or I'll lose my touch man. AIN'T NO WAY THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN. So after soccer, which ended about 7pm, we headed to Kallang Leisure Park to have our dinner. Some of them went home cause they had dinner waiting for them. Justin had to go meet his class. Sad, we haven't met in a long time but we'll definitely meet up VERY VERY soon. Anyway, dinner. Oh wow, I broke my record of not eating RICE and DESSERT for dinner for almost a month. Trying to lose them fats man! But all's good. Doing well so far! But gotta have more discipline if I want better results. Okay, where was I? Oh yes, DINNER. We had a lot to talk about. From soccer to friends to our secondary school memories. Haven't met them in A VERY LONG TIME. It was damn fun man! Especially when we talked about soccer. Just like old times :) Made each other laugh like hell man HAHA! Next, we headed off to the ARCADE, as usual, and I solo-ed Zhen Feng in daytona. I was winning until HE BANGED ME. What a loser man! Made me lose control and lose. Nevermind, I'll definitely get him next time. Well, that's all I did today. All in all, AWESOME.

I wanna share what's on my mind but I'm damn lazy to type it out right now. I'm dead tired due to soccer. But it was all worth it. I'm probably going to bed soon. A lot in my mind I wanna let out but my body is refraining me from doing so :) I've got lots of friends who have relationship problems and I'm trying my best to help most of them. Here I am trying to find my way into one and everyone is complaining about theirs. Is it really that bad? I've got no idea. Why? Because I've never been in a relationship before. Maybe it's me. Well, whatever it is, only time will tell. So to all those having problems in their relationships, if the worst happens, there's always someone out there better for you. It's just that you haven't found out who yet. But in time, you will. No doubt about that. Ciao ~

Satisfaction.

Sup people. Hmmm, what did I do today? Well, as usual, I woke up at 8am, got ready and had my breakfast and left for work. Tiring day .. Worked till about 5pm and went back home to get ready because I was gonna meet Faizal and Yan Seng. Sadly, Hannah couldn't come because she's sick. GET WELL SOON!:) Oh and Felix, that lazy bastard. So the 3 of us went to eat at Nasrin. It's at Arab Street and damn the food is good, just like all of the shops  there. I had a lamb kebab with rice. The meat was soooo tender and delicious! Gotta try it guys :) After talking cock about our daily life and problems, we shisha-ed. My cousin recommended me to try the shisha there and he was DAMN RIGHT that it tasted awesome.

' DOUBLE APPLE TOP WITH APPLE '

The shisha there uses a fruit so It's very sweet and it's REALLLLLLYYY DAMNNN GOOOD ! Apparently I was the one hogging the shisha for the whole time but.. what the hell. I paid for it :D Spent almost 70 bucks man... Had to pay for Yan Seng cause he ain't got no cash. That'll probably be the first and the last. Unless I feel rich again.. Talking to those guys is really fun man! Oh, and there was a belly dancer too! The sad part is that she's fat. Can see her belly LOL! Didn't enjoy her dance anyway. I've experienced the BEST at Dubai. Awesome place, awesome food but freakin' expensive. I wanna go there with my friends and stay at a villa by the ocean man!! Damn beautiful ! Anyway, after smoking, we headed to Iluma to check out some stuff but everything was already closed so we decided to head on back home. That's pretty much what happened. Did I mention about the shisha? Yes? IT'S AWESOME. Tried shisha many times but this is the best so far. (taking only those I've tried in Singapore into account) I wanted to try some other stuff but I decided not to. I guess it was for the best.

That's about all I intend to blog about today. Just wanna share this wonderful day with you guys. I wanna write more but I'm thinking if I should write about how I feel about some stuff but I gotta think about it first. Maybe tomorrow :) If you're lucky. Oh and before I end, PLEASE GO LISTEN TO - Selena Gomez : A Year Without Rain. Damn I'm in love with that song. I didn't really like her but after hearing that song, MUSGASMIC. New word? Yes. I invented it. That marks the end of my blog post. Adios ~

Shag to the max.

Alright people, I apologize for my laziness to blog.. I've been damn tired for the past few days. Why? Work. Everyday from Mon-Fri I'll be helping my dad pack perfumes and do some other warehouse stuff with Faizal. Working with a friends is A LOT more fun than working alone :) As usual, we talk crap and entertained ourselves. If I worked alone, I guess I'll probably quit due to boredom before the week ended haha. Anyway, It's already the 3 of Oct and there are only about 22 days before school starts. And plus, I just got back my results not long ago and I am fucking disappointed at myself. I procrastinated like hell and now I'm regretting. My parents also told me that they are disappointed at me and I promised them that I'd do much better the next time round. I will hold on to that promise.

The O's and PSLE are just around the corner. And promos, will be done in a few days. I just wanna wish all my dear friends and cousins taking these major exams GOOOOD LUCK!! If you work hard enough, I'm absolutely positive that you will succeed :)

Oh, and I haven't been spending time with my sec sch friends. I've been god damn busy finding a job and now, working. Not that I don't want to, I'm just always tired :( Sorry guys! We all said we wanna do all the crazy shit ass stuff together after exams but it has already been 3 weeks into the holidays and we haven't even do any of those things we said we'd do. Oh well, it's easier said than done. Now I'm waiting for Calvin and Justin to finish their promos and we will all spend the rest of our poly holidays indulging ourselves in fun and laughter! I really miss them man. See ya bros soon ! :)

Other than sleeping and working, I've also read up on a lot of stuff online. One of those stuffs I read up on was about dreams. Why? Because I've been dreaming of something almost every week and I've got no idea why. I wasn't even thinking of it but it keeps popping up in my head. All I wanted to know was why this was happening to me. And the answer to that was, if something you want in reality is not happening, your sub conscious mind will try to make it happen in the dream. Indeed it did and damn did it feel good. But it hurts to know that it MIGHT not happen :( As mentioned before, if you really want something, fight your way through it and if it is really good for you, you will succeed. Don't be afraid to take risks. You'll never be great without taking a chance. So I'll just pray and try my best to make this dream of mine a reality :)

Oh, and for the past few days I've been reading up on business stuffs as well. Forex trading, wall street, the recession and crimes in business. I have become much more business minded now. Gonna learn how to buy and sell shares from my dad and cousins. Good stuff :) Alright guys, I'm gonna go turn in now. As usual, I'm starting to get tired early in the day and I gotta sleep early because I usually wake up early in the morning to jog and hit the gym :) Gotta keep fit and get em girls eh ^_^ Goodnight peeps ! Ciao ~

14 bucks just went down the drain.

Why did I waste 14 bucks today, you'll know soon enough.

Was supposed to wake up at 8am to go jogging and swimming but as usual, couldn't wake up early cause I slept late. So I woke up at 12. Thanks to Faizal. If he hadn't called me, I would've woken up even later.. Alright, so after showering and getting ready, I headed off to City Hall to meet Faizal. We walked to Marina Square, STRAIGHT TO THE ARCADE. What did I play? It's damn obvious man. DAY to the TO to the NA. YEHH BOII !! So before starting the game, I told that fag Faizal, if he BANG me, he will have to pay for my game. He said ' okay okay I won't ' but nevertheless, he did bang me. And because of such pussy play, I lost one game. If you're reading this Faizal, I ain't gonna pay you shit. Then, we sat down at a table inside the cinema, waiting for Felix, Hannah and Yan Seng to come. Felix joined us about 2.45 and Hannah and Yan Seng arrived about 15 mins later. APPARENTLY, we were supposed to watch the 3pm show but SOME PEOPLE had to come late. But, It's okay :D We decided to go and catch Wall Street at Cineleisure but deja vu, WE WERE LATE AGAIN. So we choose to watch - The shock labyrinth: House of horrors - So sad Hannah couldn't join us :( Or maybe she was just too scared to do so ^_^ ANYWAY, THE SHOW FUCKING SUCKED BIG TIME. Watched 3D and fuckin wasted my 14 bucks. But, me and Faizal made the show so damn bloody hilarious. Throughout the show, which was NOT EVEN CLOSE TO THRILLING OR FRIGHTENING, me and Faizal made funny fucked up noises such as ' wooo, ahhhh, oh yeah(Faizal) ' and some other crap noises. Then all of us also just screamed for no reason at some parts of the show. Damn did I have a good laugh. The funny thing is, some other people, who also found that show lame and boring, joined us and made all those noises. Was laughing throughout a 'horror' show. NICE! After that we went to the arcade, AGAIN, to play DAYTONA! This time, it was me, Felix, Faizal and Yan Seng. As usual, Faizal played dirty but he couldn't even win a single game. Heard that Faizal, YOU SUCK. PERIOD. We headed home after playing the arcade awhile cause I had to be home by 7pm. When I got home, I went for a 5km jog. Felt damn good after that! Did sit-ups and push-ups and had salad for dinner (Y). Other than that, nothing much happened for the rest of the day.

The whole week I have been meeting Faizal. Talked, looked for a job together, and went window shopping. Met him EVERY SINGLE day. But hey, that guy never fails to make me laugh my ass off each and everyday:) Awesome guy! But still, Faizal, I'm not gonna pay you anything you fag. 

Starting work next week. Probably won't be able to go out for 2-3 weeks. Can't meet ANY friends :( But I'll be working with Faizal so it's alright. Work is gonna be fun man! Can't wait for the MONEY $_$. And I'm gonna spend hopefully NOT ALL OF THEM on shopping with Hannah and the other guys. OH YEAH! Now I'm gonna start to practice playing Misery Business by Paramore. Me and Faizal is gonna jam that song together SOON. 

Oh god.. I've been on a video call on msn with Faizal since 10pm. And now, he's sleeping. I really wanna take a picture but he's only in his boxers hehe. Oh, and I just saw him scratch his ass. Not that I enjoyed it or anything .. I feel damn tired after exercising. I guess I better go to bed as well. GOOOOOOOOODNIGHT.

Beautiful nightmare.

God damn I'm freakin lazy to blog now haha..
Okay, so what did I do today hmm.. Met Faizal at Bedok in the afternoon and went for a job interview and we FINALLY got a job as packers working at I've got no idea where.. Then, he came to my place to chill and have lunch and we left to meet Dini and Julaika at Cineleisure and watched Devil. That movie wasn't good at all man. It wasn't even frightening and the girls were screaming and covering their eyes.. I can't believe Felix was scared shitless when he watched that show. What a pussy man! That guy is so damn easy to frighten. Anyway, after the show, we walked to Ion and I went to Mont Blanc to find a ring for myself.. Unfortunately, they didn't have the ring I wanted. They were outta stock. We walked around Ion for about 45mins before heading to Orchard Central to eat ice-cream at Heaven's Loft - Ben & Jerry. It's the same place in case you were wondering. Had AWESOME Belgian waffles with chocolate chip cookie dough and chunky monkey(banana). Haven't had ice-cream for quite some time and damn it tasted soooo goood! We sat outside, very nice place to chill and talk with your friends. It's quite romantic too! After that, Dini and Julaika had to go home cause they've got a curfew, so me and Faizal walked around and talked cock. That's pretty much it..Gonna watch Wall Street with Felix, Faizal and Hannah later on. Hope it's good!

Oh, and I had a dream last night. It was probably one of the best and one of the worst I've ever had in my life. A part of me wants to have that dream again, and the other part doesn't. Why? Now that's confidential. As aforementioned, It's beautiful nightmare:) Let's just leave it at that alright.

My mind is blank.. I've got no idea what else to talk about. I guess I'm tired. Been out the whole day ~ Can't wait to go shopping though! Got lotsa stuff on my wishlist and damn do they cost a bomb! I just hope my parents won't mind me spending that much on just clothes and accessories..

So, that's all for today. I think I should probably get to bed now, and maybe It will be deja vu all over again. Who knows .. Goodnight fellas!

It's your life. Take control of it.

Oh man I'm dead tired .. Managed to get a job today but it sucks like hell man. Gotta be at woodlands at 7am, and the pay isn't even attractive. Why the hell did I even sign up for this shit. Oh well, what's done is done, no point whining about it since I gotta do it anyway.

Anyway, what I really wanted to talk about is whether it's worth spending time on something you know you might not be able to succeed. They say, if it's not possible, don't bother doing it. Well, if you're talking about flying without a plane or getting the love of your life just by sitting at home doing nothing, then yeah, don't even bother thinking about succeeding.

First of all, I'm optimistic and I've always lived up to my principles, 'If you want something, work your balls out for it.' Sometimes, people tell me that I may not succeed in what I want and I'll just tell them okay or whatever just to shut them up. I don't have time to listen to their bullshit. I'm not gonna wait for miracles to happen. You control your own life, you change your own fate. If you expect to get what you want just by sitting at home and waiting for it to come running at you, you can just smash your face against the wall cause that ain't gonna happen. Don't let others tell you what you can, or cannot succeed at BECAUSE they do NOT know you as well as you know yourself. So don't go around asking people hey, do you think I can ' whatever it is you think you can't ' because when they say no, and you know they're gonna, you will just feel more fucked up and keep on thinking whether you should or should not go for it. It doesn't matter what other people think or say, all that matters is what you say and what you want to achieve. Don't allow others to pull you down.

If you're a pessimist and all you do is wait, I suggest you get up, set your mind straight, and get in the game. Because no one's gonna wait for you. Don't depend on others about your future, it's yours, not theirs. SO GET UP AND JUST DO WHAT YOU WANT TO. But make sure it's LEGAL, or you're just screwing yourself up again. YEH BOI !!! ( Quoted from the NOT so awesome Eric Josua )

OKAY BABES, time to go to bed. I've got work at 7am @ WOODLANDS.. Goodnight and sweetdreams :)

The bigger they are, the harder they fall.

Hmm... what did I do today ?
Sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep.
That's pretty much it I guess...

OH OH OH, LIVERPOOL VS MANCHESTER UNITED..
Well, since I don't have MIO tv, I followed my uncles to east coast beach mac D to catch the game.. DAMN! Lots of liverpool fans there! AWESOME MAN!!!! I only managed to catch the second half though..
Alright, when we left my house to go to the beach, it was half-time and the score was 1-0, man u was leading. During the ride there, oh god.. my uncles were quarreling about man u and liverpool and it was GOD DAMN FUNNY MAN! 2 of em supported man u, and me and my other uncle supported liverpool. We were scolding each other and then one of my uncles called his cousin, who is a DIE-HARD liverpool fan and once he answered the phone he straight away said, ' eh I heard liverpool losing ' and his cousin just kept quiet and didn't even say a word and my uncles and I laughed like hell man haha! My uncle practically laughed for freakin 10minutes ..
OKAY, then when we got to ground zero, there were lotsa people there and THE MOST AWESOME PART IS, 70% of the people there are LIVERPOOL FANS! HOW GREAT IS THAT EH? So, we found a seat and watched the second half. Unfortunately, man u scored AGAIN and as usual, the man u fans cheered for them.. pathetic fools. NEXT, liverpool managed to get a penalty and HELL YEAH GERRARD SCORED! Man that guy never fails to make me smile man! That's why he's my idol :) After liverpool scored, the man u fans got worried and even the man u players lost confidence, weaklings.And awhile later liverpool scored again. Gerrard's free kick!! Fletcher and Van Der Sar can go suck dick. Me and one of my uncle was laughing our asses off and scolding the crap out of my other 2 uncles haha ! Man.. I wish I had brothers like them man.. Those losers don't even enjoy watching soccer. I'm the only one in my family who does. Alright, after lots of laughing and screaming, MAN U SCORED. YEAH, WHAT.. THE.. FUCK. I was absolutely speechless. All the man u fans got up and screamed their lungs out man .. They're all really retards. But what the heck, great game eh ?! :) Oh and I gotta give credit to Berbatov for managing to pull through a magnificent bicycle kick. Oh and Rooney for cheating on his pregnant wife and sucking. I guess whatever skill Berbatov gained, Rooney lost.

Oh and I nearly forgot to mention, throughout the fuckin second half, there was a guy who REALLY HATED LIVERPOOL and he kept on laughing at the liverpool's players when they fell and all those little stupid things. It was kinda irritating, and I felt like getting up and smashing his face on the wall man. Oh, and don't get me started on a group of malays. Apparently they make jokes that only THEY can understand and laugh about it. Another bunch of fools.. Man u supporters, horrendous people.

OVERALL, I had an awesome day.. Besides the fact that liverpool lost and Felix bragging to me about Man u's victory throughout the night. Fuck you for that. Oh and I've got a job interview tomorrow! Oh yeah! Hope to get a job and not waste my damn holidays AGAIN .. Alright guys, that's all for now. Peace out ~

TO ALL MANCHESTER UNITED SUPPORTERS, KISS MY ASS.

C'est La Vie.

Today was one hell of a tiring day.. Woke up, helped my maid prepare the tables and chairs for the guests that came over in the evening. Practiced drumming for about an hour and fell asleep while watching tv. Had to entertain the guests until 12am. Waited 3 freakin hours before having dinner. 

Now, lying down on the bed staring at the ceiling thinkin bout my life. Managed to pull through all the shit that I've undergone and the ones that I'm going to go through. Damn.. That's a whole lotta shit! But hey, life's like a dick, sometimes it gets hard for no reason. We just have to find a way around those problems and we're good. 

Anyway, I'm not sure why but I feel lost and confused. I don't understand myself and I don't seem to know what I want or how I'm feeling about different things. I'm able to help others but I can't help myself. That's probably how everyone is eh.. Sometimes I wonder if I'm cursed or blessed with this life. All those different feelings wrapped around me, holding me down.Oh god, how am I gonna pull through this. But the thing that keeps me moving, is knowing that I've already pulled through lots of shit, and this one ain't no different.

There's no point whining and complaining about how fucked up you life is, cause that'll only make things worse. So, like what I always tell others, or what others always tell me, suck it up, fuck those problems and move on with life. I've been told this many times 'follow your heart'. And yes, that's what I'm doing now and hell yeah it feels awesome. You want something, go for it, before it's too late. Better to be happy that you've tried rather than regret that you didn't. So to speak, I've been there and done that. I've learnt from my mistakes and moved on. And, I'm definitely not going back to square one. That would be foolish of me. So.. yeah. Don't be afraid to pursue your dreams. For they might actually come true, that is, if you work hard enough for it.

A brand new start.

WADDDUP PEOPLE ! Just wanna say thanks to Jacinta for helping me with the designs and shit! Damn.. haven't even started blogging and I've got a headache. That's all I'm gonna post for now. Gonna turn in soon. Once again, THANKS! :D