STONED!

Last night was fucking awesome! GODD DAMNN STONEDD MAN!

Temptations..

RESIST THOSE GOD DAMN TEMPTATIONS ROHAIL!! You're gonna regret it sooner or later so DON'T YOU DARE DO IT! Oh my.. I feel so weird talking to myself. It's almost 4am now, and I can't sleep cause I'm damn full. Had a HEAVY supper with my cousins and bro at simpang about an hour ago. Haven't felt this full for quite awhile now and I really hate this feeling!! Anyway, the ride home was damn funny man. My bro was driving like he was playing daytona! Everytime he crossed the traffic light we all would go ' time extension ' and laughed our asses off. We even counted down the timing and when it was almost 0, he slowed down the car and managed to cross the traffic light and he sped up. Funny shit man! Before that we watched Harry Potter at tmall. EVEN FURTHER BEFORE THAT, I watched Easy A with cat, zx and jacinta. Why you so quite today uh! Moody sia somebody haha. Anyway, before watching the movie with them, I owned, no wait, PWNED zx in daytona like nearly 8 games in a row? He thinks he is better than me.. Oh well, guess your time have passed. IT'S MY TIME TO SHINE BABY! I feel like I'm on crack man.. I'M DEFINITELY NOT! And I was just thinking of where to celebrate my 18th birthday but the thought of even celebrating it haven't really crossed my mind. People are saying that, your 18th birthday must be an 'awesome' one. Maybe not for me. Didn't celebrate my 17th birthday because I was too busy thinking of how I was gonna do for my O's!! Results came out just a day after my birthday! Sucks eh.. Probaby gonna stone in front of my computer for the next hour or so? No one is online.. No one to talk to :( It's only 4 am!! THE NIGHT IS YOUNG PEOPLE!

Gonna be 18 soooon! But nothing much is gonna change.. Whatever I do is part of 'growing up' and doing stuff just for the sake of trying and some other reasons too.I am young and curious! Too much stuff I wanna do, too little time. If i wrote down the stuff I wanna do in life, you guys would probably grow old reading them. So I guess I won't be writing them down. I feel like going to starbucks man! Been ages since I've went there and had a nice and decent chat with anybody. Miss those times man .. Everyone is so busy right now, studying and sports. All I do is go to school, hit the gym and head home. Boring much? Haven't really started studying. Skipping lectures, sleeping in class and copying homework.. I'm in deep shit if I continue this routine. But I just can't seem to study at home. Need someone to go out and study with me.. Whenever someone asks me out I'll most likely go cause I'm always bored at home.. Oh and I also feel like playing rockband !! Itchy hands man.. Gotta play the drums! Alright people, if there are even anybody who reads my blog ~.~ GOODNIGHT SUCKERS.

Jacinta is so damn fucking cute and awesome! ♥
However Catherine is even more cute and awesome! ♥

Matthew Hew is hot i like his tits!
Life is good :)

Boring.

Currently in LMS class and it is god damn boring. Teaching me how to listen to people and control my anger. WTF right?! Wake up every Friday at 5.30am just to attend this crap lesson. Thank god it ends at 11 if not I'll probably skip this class every week. It's freakin cold man! I feel like sleeping, but I'm trying to keep myself awake by talking to people and playing robot unicorn attack on facebook! Damn, it's addictive haha! After school probably going to go have lunch with my friends at prata house. Been along time since I had prata! Eating it is a sin man! But once a month wouldn't hurt eh. After that gonna hit the gym with my cousin and hopefully watching a movie with Jac after gym-ing, provided she ain't busy. Oh crap, there's a group work to do now.. Gotta ciao ~ And why no one reads my blog! Check on it everyday man COME ON !

Wakakakakaka.

I'm feeling so fly like a G6!

It's different this time round.

Just when you thought everything was alright, you realize it ain't.

You won't really feel it until the moment you say goodbye.

Freedom.

What's up homies. My parents are going overseas for about a month. They're leaving tomorrow. I've been so psyched about this but now, I feel normal. No excitement or whatsoever. Been extremely tired for the past few days. Having trouble trying to stay awake in class. Lack of sleep plus hours of gyming. I can feel my body breaking down. Guess I have to rest more if not I'll just be causing more harm than good to my body. That's the last thing I would want to do. You know, it's so strange. You try to become someone you aren't just for the sake of accomplishing something. Even if it's for the wrong reasons. Sometimes you just want something so badly you would go all out to get it. Even if you're screwing yourself up. Most of the time you don't even realize that what you're doing is actually not the right thing to do. I'm the opposite of what I thought I would be. I've been lying my way through life. That's some fucked up shit eh? It's like there's a moving picture in my head that's been playing for months now. If I could, I would retrace every wrong move that I made, taking back all the pain. Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back. But that shit ain't easy. It's much easier to run than to face all the pain. Only losers and people who don't believe in themselves run. The one's who have faith will face it regardless of the pain involved. I can't feel the way I did before. Ahhh screw it.. I'm gonna go watch Lord Of The Rings now. Bored as hell. LOTR marathon till morning WOOOO! Don't intend to go to school today.. Damn shagg.


Just washing it aside.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending I don't feel misplaced.
It's so much simpler than change.

Random.

I miss you.

Memories.

I've just finished browsing nearly half or my old windows messenger conversations with some of my friends. I feel so fucked up right now. We used to be so happy last time but now it's all a thing of the past. Talked all night long. Asked each other for help on certain stuffs and entertained each other all night long. We sometimes even chatted all the way till sunrise. Really miss those times. Sadly, they'll never ever come back. Comparing to how we talk now, there's a huge gap in between and it's getting bigger and bigger and eventually, you might just become someone I once knew. (Hopefully that will never happen) I just can't bear the thought of you not being a part of my life. I hope we can go out, talk or even study the same way we used to do it last time. Now, talking to you seems kinda difficult for me. I've got no idea why, but I hate it. I've got to at least make an effort to try to bring back those memories. Even if it is not the same, a little close would do just fine. I think I'm the cause of this mess and I'm the only one that can fix it. But it won't be easy at all. Being able to make things exactly like last time would be just like going to hell and back, nearly impossible. Ain't gonna let this slip away. It wouldn't be possible to find someone else like you. I want go rewind my life. Back to the time when I was still in control of myself, when I was still holding on to my principles, when I still could see a promising future, when I was still enjoying the 'good' life. Sometimes I just feel like punching the fuck out of the wall and let it all out but it wouldn't be a good idea would it? Hell no. Guess I gotta let it all out on the zombies I would probably be killing later on instead. That is, if nothing goes wrong. Haha.. whatever.

Gosh.. that was a load of my mind.