Memories.

I've just finished browsing nearly half or my old windows messenger conversations with some of my friends. I feel so fucked up right now. We used to be so happy last time but now it's all a thing of the past. Talked all night long. Asked each other for help on certain stuffs and entertained each other all night long. We sometimes even chatted all the way till sunrise. Really miss those times. Sadly, they'll never ever come back. Comparing to how we talk now, there's a huge gap in between and it's getting bigger and bigger and eventually, you might just become someone I once knew. (Hopefully that will never happen) I just can't bear the thought of you not being a part of my life. I hope we can go out, talk or even study the same way we used to do it last time. Now, talking to you seems kinda difficult for me. I've got no idea why, but I hate it. I've got to at least make an effort to try to bring back those memories. Even if it is not the same, a little close would do just fine. I think I'm the cause of this mess and I'm the only one that can fix it. But it won't be easy at all. Being able to make things exactly like last time would be just like going to hell and back, nearly impossible. Ain't gonna let this slip away. It wouldn't be possible to find someone else like you. I want go rewind my life. Back to the time when I was still in control of myself, when I was still holding on to my principles, when I still could see a promising future, when I was still enjoying the 'good' life. Sometimes I just feel like punching the fuck out of the wall and let it all out but it wouldn't be a good idea would it? Hell no. Guess I gotta let it all out on the zombies I would probably be killing later on instead. That is, if nothing goes wrong. Haha.. whatever.

Gosh.. that was a load of my mind.